Monday, October 26, 2009

Santiago longing

My belly is full of organic apples and almond butter with fresh coconut sprinkled on top. I can get whole spices in bulk and make my own curries, and today at the supermarket I saw 10 different kinds of pumpkin for sale for Halloween. If my life didn't revolve so much around food I could probably get by with a life in Santiago. That, and if I never had to leave my apartment.

No, but really, I miss Santiago.

I wouldn't call myself a city person, but I do enjoy cities. And I'm missing that city in particular.

We haven't been back since we left in April, 2008. And that's beginning to seem like a long time ago.

Santiago has a certain pulse, and as my best friend Magdalena says, it has a certain smell. (No, not the smog.) I miss Manuel Montt, I miss walking outside at 1am on a weekend and seeing people around. I miss the outdoor cafés, I miss people watching. I sometimes even miss people serenading me on the micro.

I miss our old apartment, weekend trips to Viña del Mar. I miss the wine... so much. I miss Bellavista's fancy restaurants and little hole in the wall picadas.

I miss people. Lots of people. Some are still there, some are not, some have moved on.

I miss the Chilean accent, seeing the virgen lit up at night from my apartment, I miss Casa&Ideas.

I even miss the Sunday afternoon stroll down Antonio Varas to my in laws house. The smell of my mother in law's laundry and the cold wooden floors of spring.

Santiago is the city where I fell in love. I became an adult in that city, in many ways when I went to Santiago I started a new life.

I miss it. Please pour yourself a vinito tinto and think of me. Cause I'm missing you, Chile, it took over a year and a half of absence to make this heart grow fonder.

8 comments:

Emily said...

Yup, I pretty much think hell may have frozen over :)

Hopefully you guys can come back to visit soon so that you can enjoy all the good parts and things that you do miss.

Emita said...

it really is magical how time and distance allows our wonderful memories to come to the forefront! my chile nostalgia comes in waves, and i still know i'm in the right place for now but pretty much each one of your longings brought it back for me in a super intense way! i'm finding that when the seasons change i get particularly nostalgic, somehow it wakes me up and sends me back to where i was the last time i felt the change. sigh. but yes, visit you must!

Amanda said...

I want to visit soon, but Oscar doesn't really get that many days off. :(
Boooooooooo.

Mamacita Chilena said...

Haha, ditto to what Emily said!

No, I think if you were actually living here again you'd be so miserable that you'd hate it again, but being away and wanting to just come to visit for a little bit makes all those things that were *nice* while you were, seem that much more desirable!

Annje said...

I get that longing quite a bit. Even though there were always things that drove me crazy, there are a lot of things I miss. I wonder what it will be like if/when we live there again. I worry that maybe I am only fond of it in its absence?

You and Oscar should come over for some vino tinto sometime soon. Oscar and my hubs can say huevon and cachai to their hearts content.

Sara said...

Wow! I've been feeling like I need to get out of here. I've been having some serious escape fantasies. This post makes me feel good. I'm going to drink some red wine for you and try to catch a glimpse of the virgen... or do you like the fountain that lights up at night in Parque Balmaceda? :)

Amanda said...

Sara,
If you're gonna do that fountain, then in addition to the vinito you need an helado from La Escarcha on Manuel Montt. :)

KeM said...

sounds like you miss living in a city and the only city you've lived in is santiago. am i right? maybe post graduation you should try a bigger city. i am a city girl and while i love country quiet, it gets real boring for me real fast. santiago is a cool city and i love it but there are way cool cities in the US too. that said, you probably miss Stgo so much cuz you haven't been back. so come visit! i still have your iron : )